When Life Becomes Nothing

موضوع: When Life Becomes Nothing 13/7/2009, 8:50 am

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Today is the same as yesterday
& tomorrow I guess will be the same all over again
Why can't I feel the days??
Why can't I break my paper chains??

When life becomes nothing
& there's nothing I can do
& all my life becomes senseless waiting
Flames burning inside my veins that even ice can't cool

A starry night is all I live for
To be noticed in a stranger's shadow is all I crave
& I settle for having nothing, not wanting anything more
& from myself I wish somebody can pull me, can save

I scream all my spirit in a whisper
That dies in my throat
Not dead, but sure feels like I am
& in my hand I won't let go of that suicide note
Hanging between painful past & fearful future
Though I hate it, I won't take off my disappearance coat

My soul is long gone
Leaving my body numb
I hate happiness, I hate myself, I hate the sun
Moments outside myself
I know I'd kill for some

My dead heart won't stop beating
My tears so useless
Everything around me is fading
Except pain –by my own will- is still growing

Is it the world's fault??
Or am I the reason??
Till I find the answer
I'll keep on bleeding

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